So you’re back in this hole
You need a way out
Starting to feel weak
You have a lot of doubt
It’s been a few days
Since you’ve been swirling around
Cause your life is crashing
Taking your whole world down
It’s gonna be okay
That’s what they all say
But it gets less reassuring
Day after day
I feel like I’ve been beat
It’s probably time to quit
I think it’s time to face defeat
These windows keep closing
They’re suffocating me in this room
Slowly but surely
They’ll take my last cold breathe
Shooting it right out of my chest
It’s getting darker
Making life so much harder
It’s gonna be alright though
You’ll feel no more sorrow
Have a little faith,
That you’ll make it to tomorrow
My head’s hurting
My fuckin’ stomachs turning
I can see okay
But the thoughts in my head
Are saying I should drink ’till I’m dead
I can walk straight
And although you hate this
I feel fuckin’ great
As angry as one can get
I stared at the glass
Oh how upset
Now back to my wrist
Push down a lot harder
Show ’em you want this
The more it touched my skin
The angrier I became
It wasn’t good enough
I wanted bigger cuts
Still, nothing
Only scratches left on me
I’m unsatisfied
So I try another piece
Slower this time
I want to get it right
All my blue turned to red
I want to be done with this
I’m so ready to be dead
You smile in my face
But things aren’t okay
You fuckin hate me right now
You wish I would change
But drugs are my favorite
Alcohol and dope,
All next to coke
I warned you of this
I told you not to come with
But it’s too late now
There’s no escape
You’re stuck here with me
Just like it was fate
For me to ruin you
As I dig my own grave
So to hell I’ll go
But before I do
I want you to know
That you’re also coming too
Trapped in my life,
You don’t get a better option
You’ll now watch me die
And at the end of it all
I’ll be all you have left
No other way to turn
You’ll have to face my death
Cause I warned you
To fucking turn away
But you decided you were gonna stay
So now I’ll just sit here with you
And keep smiling in your face
As I lie, saying things are okay
Let’s take a walk
Think about every talk
Why’d you go and do that
Is it that hard to stop doing bad
You’re a little sad
More disappointed than mad
But I’m trying
Then why the fuck are you still crying
Get this out of your head
You don’t want to be dead
How many times do you go over this in your head
I know you can’t help but wish you were dead
But he’s not gonna fix you remember,
just
like he said.
Self destructing
You’ve lost control again
Destroying mountains
You’ve found no home still
Hurricanes through the valley
You’ve taken several victims
Fires set in the woods
You’ve showed no sympathy
Robbing every city
You’ve given your last call
Taking everything with you
You’ve taken down your last wall
It feels like when you catch your breath
Finally
After running in the cold
The feeling when your lips reach the surface
Sucking
In the air after being under water a second longer than you can stand
When you’re dying of heat and your dry throat
Gulps
Down the coldest of water
When you see the needle at the doctor but the
Sting
Is fast and the prick is painless
The pain in your side and stomach after
Laughing
For ten minutes straight
When you get on a roller coaster and that bit of
Fear
Is in you but suddenly the rides over
When you almost hit another car and your
Heart
Jumps a small beat of relief
Sometimes
Things go bad
No warnings, no signs
Now you’re nothing but sad
Sometimes
Things cross paths
For nothing
Nothing but to crash
Sometimes
Things will never stay
No goodbye
Everything leaves without a trace
Sometimes
Things are just for a moment
You have to let be
Learn and just leave
Sometimes
Things are just to hurt
To fuck you up
Then rub in more dirt
Sometimes
Things are better that way
Giving you no more chances
Showing you life’s no game
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