Author: imjustkristina

Want.

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I want to know what’s it’s like to not want to stand in the middle of the road
I want to feel what it’s like to want to go home
I want to see what it’s like to live happily
I just want to live and not hate to breathe
I want to be able to stay in one place and not have to leave
I want to not always have the urge to scream
I want to not hate the world that I see
I want to feel like laughters a medicine that can fix me
I want to know what it’s like to not hate your life
I want to not be depressed and look like a hopeless mess
I just want to be alive, I promise that I don’t want to die

Are You.

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You’re drowning
How’d you possibly forget how to swim
You’re losing
Can’t remember what it’s like to win
You’re alone
Never had an actual home
You’re scared
No one is even aware
You’re gone
Wishing this hadn’t been done
You’re sad
Can’t stop the thoughts that are bad
You’re dying
Found everyone lying
You’re dead
So many words left unsaid

Headed Nowhere.

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Where’s your mind
Where’d you go
How long before you know
What you see
Is far from me
Nowhere close
Is where this will go
I don’t speak
And you don’t believe
What a fucked up master piece
I smile at you
You smile at me
You think this’ll end happily
It’s a game of heart
That’ll make this fall apart
You’ll be to blame
I’ll be to shame
In our little world full of pain
So where’s our mind
Where did we go
Do you think we’ll ever know

Keep asking.

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Are you okay
Or is it just okay
Depressions playing
But you wanna change the game
A smile on
Or just a painted face
You don’t even know
But you hate this place
You sit there and cry
Keep asking yourself why
Then relapse again
But you swear you want it to end
You’ll do better
You say you don’t want to die
But the look on your face
Says it’s just another lie

No Bestfriend.

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I hope if you read this
You’ll know it’s about you
And remember all that I say
Is nothing but truth
We know you’re mad
But you’re nothing but bad
For us and our lives
You’re not worth the price
Making us all just want to die
I hope that you miss
All the things we used to do
I hope that you think
Of all the shit you put us through
A negative energy surrounds your soul
You let it consume you and it’ll continue till you’re old
Rotting from the inside out
It’s too late, you’re addicted now
We tried to save you
By killing ourselves
You cried on, we were no help
You pushed away the only people you knew
That would of died or killed for you
So as you stand there alone
As you feel this in your bones
Saying these drugs won’t let you go
I want you to know that it was hard
To pull away
From your dismay
Trust me this hurts but it’s for the best
We refuse to still be depressed
No longer with you, a hopeless mess
I want to apologize
But I won’t anymore
For you’ve dug your own grave
And still have no shame
You’re no victim
You’re to blame
Keep doing your lines
But this is goodbye
To your selfish, greedy bullshit lies
You won’t feed us your disease
We’ve moved on now, getting clean
It’s time for you to see
You were never a bestfriend to me
So I hope if you ever read this you’ll know it’s about you
And our little story of what you put us through

She’s A Killer.

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She doesn’t care
And you’re not the only one
To fall in love with her stare
She doesn’t fear
And you’re not the only one
Wishing you could take back that year
She doesn’t show
And you’re not the only one
Thinking that you could actually know
She doesn’t see
And you’re not the only one
Who ended leaving helplessly
She doesn’t love
And you’re not the only one
That she has a part of