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Mind altering is merely an insight

Do not allow your soul to become drunk on these insights

Understand them, feel them

Learn and let go

Choose to be happy without

Continue to let your mind live only by soul

Happpiness is as any other feeling

It will come in waves

Sometimes slow

Sometimes overwhelming

It will come and it will go

Such as all feelings – A choice

Wake up and choose

Choose every day

Choose every minute

Material can hold onto many

Material is only matter

Overwhelmed with material the world brings

Will happen, a thing not many believe in

But neither consume or be consumed

For special lays with your soul

Within your mind

Material must be let go

Energy never lies my dear

Remember your gut has your best interest

Not there to bring you fear

Listen, not too closely

But just enough to hear the pump of your heart

Gut is quite keen on the soul

Follow it through without exception

Honesty is the only way through life

Without causes chaos, pain, death

Death in trust, value, humanity

Holding the coals to her chest

Keeping that paper heart

In such a fiery mess

Not recognizing the dance of resentment

Frustrated with myself, the years wasted
Being someone else
Fighting to breathe, the air tainted
I can do it with no help
Forget the goals, the dreams, it will be years
Brain drowning in fear
Feeling rarely ever dissapears, success is not so easy
It’s not supposed to be easy
Finding a way is not supposed to be fun, hard work
That’s what it will take

I want to fall in love with the sun.

And everything it has to offer, it’s nature, it’s love.

I want to give like the sun and earth give. The way the universe gives unto you and me.

I want to be as free as the wind in our skies.
And I want to breathe as deeply as the trees and plants breathe.

I want to be one again.

I still think about you everyday
But I know that’s a game I don’t want to play
And I can still hear you calling my name
But this is the end of that wild chase
Officially a year since you’ve been in my veins
The scars from all the burns you made
The holes in my skin, digging my grave
I am no longer the same
My fate, my way, all has changed
I am no longer a slave
I will no longer decay
I won’t break like the lines I used to make
My life won’t be cut short like the shards I used to take
Used to not care if my life was at stake
Didn’t matter if I ever ate, sleep wasn’t a thing
Always wide awake, days after days
But it’s over now, you can see it on my face
My life is something new
No, I won’t turn back that way

I want to know what’s it’s like to not want to stand in the middle of the road
I want to feel what it’s like to want to go home
I want to see what it’s like to live happily
I just want to live and not hate to breathe
I want to be able to stay in one place and not have to leave
I want to not always have the urge to scream
I want to not hate the world that I see
I want to feel like laughters a medicine that can fix me
I want to know what it’s like to not hate your life
I want to not be depressed and look like a hopeless mess
I just want to be alive, I promise that I don’t want to die