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It’s time for one more
Another broken heart
You got torn apart
I wander but now alone
Lost again it feels,
Can’t find the way home
Your hand no longer in reach
The thought makes me empty
You’ve taken my mind
It’s now black all the time
Killing my sanity
Making it harder to breathe
I feel it in my bones
When he says he doesn’t want to be alone
But do you see it in my eyes
When I say I want to end my life

Walking so much
I just want to lay down
Looking straight up
At night there’s no sound
The moon sits still
As I look around
The stars used to fill
My empty mind
These streets used to kill
All lost time
The homes used to feel
Like they were once mine
Now it’s all nonexistent
I feel my life
I’ve completely missed it

Long roads

Almost never end

Which way to go

No one knows

We lost control

Time

Passes by

Alone in this hole

Sitting still

No more digging

I have no will

I do think of you
More than I’d like to let you prove
But I have to go
And you must stay
We’re two different people
Going opposite ways
You’re not a part of this
But fuck, I’m going to miss
The taste of your lips
How soft your kiss
The way your hands ran over my hips
How much you told me you wanted this
But it’s all faded into black
There’s no hope here anymore
We have to stop looking back
We must move on to what’s next
Go on with our lives
Stop wasting each other’s time
This is done, the storm is over
New life has now begun

I whispered and you cried
So I told you a couple of good lies
To make you imagine that this was our time
We stood still as we had a lot of time to kill
You looked in my eyes with bright white lights
For this one last time but you didn’t know
That this was the end of our show
Because I made you believe
You were important to me
Now you’ll wonder for the rest of your years
What was it that brought you here
And you’ll have no other answer
Except your own cancer
So to blame this on me is where you are wrong
Cause I told you from the start
You’ve been nothing to me all along
Now you’re breaking down in front of me
And you can hardly take a second to breathe
I would love to help and see you at ease
But I’m not the person you wanted me to be
You’re pleading me to stay
But I always told you it was not that way
You knew it in your heart that I was gonna tear you apart
You were blinded by my eyes and the small lovely lies
Stayed anyways, after I told you this was a game you shouldn’t play
Cause times change but I’ll still be the same
And you will always be the one to blame
For putting your soul in this awful self loathing cage

Small is a understatement
Of how you made me feel
Dead, sometimes I swear
I wish you weren’t real
In my fucking head
Word after word
Everything you’ve said
Lost everything it seemed
My home, my family,
The world was now a new scene
Wandered where I swear I wouldn’t go
But I couldn’t help
Giving up my entire soul
Day after day
Letting the black grow
Everything was lost
My mind, my heart,
Such an expensive cost
Dying is what I wanted
That’s why I kept so fast
Saving, never happened
This here was meant to last

We’re going away

Today dies

Tomorrow will fade

We’re going away

Say goodbye

Off to a better place

We’re going away

Once more

This is now a new game

You’re going away

I stay

Just another lonely face

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The
Shiny bright screen has sucked you in
Binge
and
binge
As if you’re afraid
That one day it will
end

Screaming from the top
My voice is not heard
There was no echo
Just many, many thoughts
Dancing around, my brain will never stop
Why can’t they hear me?
It’s as if I’ve never been able to talk
Pleading and pleading
I just need to be heard
Crying and screaming
My heart is doing too much bleeding
Why won’t they help me?
Are my dreams not worth believing?
Why won’t they hear me?
My soul can’t keep screaming

Running like a marathon
At this speed I have to move on,
right?
Faster than you see
Chased and now I can’t breathe
Took a pause because I got lost
Now I’m running back
Because it’s hard to keep on track