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I still think about you everyday
But I know that’s a game I don’t want to play
And I can still hear you calling my name
But this is the end of that wild chase
Officially a year since you’ve been in my veins
The scars from all the burns you made
The holes in my skin, digging my grave
I am no longer the same
My fate, my way, all has changed
I am no longer a slave
I will no longer decay
I won’t break like the lines I used to make
My life won’t be cut short like the shards I used to take
Used to not care if my life was at stake
Didn’t matter if I ever ate, sleep wasn’t a thing
Always wide awake, days after days
But it’s over now, you can see it on my face
My life is something new
No, I won’t turn back that way

You’re walking off
I try not to choke
But the words I never spoke
Sit in a deep lump in my throat
You turn away
And it’s like this every other day
But I’m tired and I will no longer chase
You let everything get to your brain
So now we’re stuck here with nothing but pain
And you go and go,
Trying to point the blame
But I won’t yell, no you won’t make me insane
For I know my heads clear,
For it was you that did me wrong dear,
And I know how you’ll hide your shame
It’ll be my name you taint
Now we’ll never be the same

It’s been a while
Since we’ve seen that smile
It felt like it drifted away
Off both of our face
And now this moments here
And I can’t bare to hear
The stories you’re trying to tell
They make me mad
I want to yell
But you keep saying you’re sorry
And I keep saying I hate you
You reply, swearing up that I made you

Addicted to the life on the road

All those houses are no homes

You’re not meant to be alone

But you’ll always be good on your own

So you go far by yourself

Then complain how you get no help

Push them all away

Build your walls

You never let them fall

You don’t need them

Not a single one at all

It’s been almost a year
Since I’ve felt your kiss
Two more months to go
But I can still hear you
You can’t let go
But it feels so good
To not be so cold
My chest no longer frozen
My lungs no longer chokin
I can breathe straight
You no longer control me
No more sadness in my brain
No more junk in my veins
Finally done playing those games
My eyes are clear
You can see it on my face,
Black is no longer in the way
I’ve finally overcame, I actually won
And I’ll continue to every single day

Driving me insane

This fucking loss,

You’re to blame

Murder

Comes to my head

Torture

I wish you were dead

Seeking revenge

I want this to be your fucking end

Useless.

Promise me
You’ll never think that again,

Ever.

I promise.

When I think of you
When I look at you
Irresponsible
Of me to not give you
The words you deserve
Fake
Of me to throw my fist at
The wall

“Am I that bad?
That everybody leaves”
I remember that call
Maybe if you weren’t so addicted
Maybe if you admit the shitty shit you did
No.
Not even then.
Everyone will leave you,
I hope they do.

I bet you get mad
When they
Do dope without
You