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Did he whimper
When you saw him
Did his tail wag in happiness
Or did he just lay

Still,

Barely breathing
I’m dying to know
Because it’s killing me
And I can’t help but let it show

She’s running

Running

running

She’ll never stop
Chasing
Everything

I had to stop thinking about you
All the crying and clenching
Making my jaw hurt

Goodbye is what they say

When things go the wrong way

When the player no longer wants to play

Cause they’re way over this game

Thinking it’s time to change

But everyone else isn’t on that page

Cause they all want to stay the same

At the end of the day

And there’s nothing to do but walk away

And finally choose you

I whispered and you cried
So I told you a couple of good lies
To make you imagine that this was our time
We stood still as we had a lot of time to kill
You looked in my eyes with bright white lights
For this one last time but you didn’t know
That this was the end of our show
Because I made you believe
You were important to me
Now you’ll wonder for the rest of your years
What was it that brought you here
And you’ll have no other answer
Except your own cancer
So to blame this on me is where you are wrong
Cause I told you from the start
You’ve been nothing to me all along
Now you’re breaking down in front of me
And you can hardly take a second to breathe
I would love to help and see you at ease
But I’m not the person you wanted me to be
You’re pleading me to stay
But I always told you it was not that way
You knew it in your heart that I was gonna tear you apart
You were blinded by my eyes and the small lovely lies
Stayed anyways, after I told you this was a game you shouldn’t play
Cause times change but I’ll still be the same
And you will always be the one to blame
For putting your soul in this awful self loathing cage

Saying goodbye now to everybody

I’ll be back later, I’m sorry

Getting into this car, now I’m gone

Not realizing what I’ve really done

Not going to where I thought

This new place is a little further, I forgot

Really wanting to turn around 

I hate being in this place with no sound

I hate seeing your face cause you’re different now

Your voice is a stranger

You’re talking about bangers

And my mind is saying to turn away from this danger

Wishing you would leave my head
Trying not to show that I wish I was with you instead
We promised we’d let this go
Because it’s the only way we’ll both really grow
But it feels so strange
Trying to get used to this big change
Saying goodbye to my favorite place
And all the things we brought along this way
Hoping I’ll be able to just pray
That somehow you’ll hear the words I never actually say
And maybe I can see you smile
Hopefully one day, cause god it’s been a while
Going on six long months
These same thoughts keep my head so stuck
Thinking maybe we just ran out of luck
Considering all the terrific stuff
But we’re not meant to be
I know that’s what you believe
So if this is how it ends
Then I’m sorry and I love you,
But goodbye once again

Slowly coming back to me

All the things I couldn’t see

Cause I was blind

To all the true things I should’ve believed

I want them to be wrong

I’m trying so hard to be strong

So to move forward alone

Without those that made me feel at home

Will be the hardest thing to achieve

But I know this is what I need

To become who I want to be

So when I look in the mirror and finally see

The person I love, that person will be me

I’m here now
And it’s as if there’s no place out
Letting you go
Is the hardest thing
I’ve ever known
Now to do it all again
It makes my body shake
To start this over
Is a mistake
Cause I hate you
And you hate me
We’re two opposites
I know you see
So across the world is where I’ll be
Far from you
And hopeless dreams

I do think of you
More than I’d like to let you prove
But I have to go
And you must stay
We’re two different people
Going opposite ways
You’re not a part of this
But fuck, I’m going to miss
The taste of your lips
How soft your kiss
The way your hands ran over my hips
How much you told me you wanted this
But it’s all faded into black
There’s no hope here anymore
We have to stop looking back
We must move on to what’s next
Go on with our lives
Stop wasting each other’s time
This is done, the storm is over
New life has now begun