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This feeling so strange
I don’t know how to take it
Kind of hate things this way
Taking different turns
Our lives no longer merge
I feel almost alone but I know I’m not
Lost your arms, my home
My favorite spot
No proper goodbye
Will ever exist
You’ll stay in mind
Literally all the time
And I’ll have so many things left unsaid
But it’s better that way
I’ll keep it all in my head
I just hope and pray
That you no longer wish you were dead
And I really believe maybe one day
We’ll finally both really be okay
So I’ll try to keep my quiet
And peace alone in this bed
As I whisper I love you,
Goodbye my bestfriend

It’s different
I’m in this but not alone
Your hand right here to hold
Stuck in this land of gold
Feels like the right direction
Just maybe the wrong road
Light everywhere I look
After a long time of nothing
I’m pretty shook
That shooting star
Must have not been that far
It heard me say
I needed help
It gave me a way
It handed me to you
You helped me see this through
Long and dark scary path
You made me believe
It would not last
That we would get out of here pretty fast
So now on the way back
I fly this way alone
But I know you’re in my heart
I know you’ll always be there
You always have been
Right from the start

Small is a understatement
Of how you made me feel
Dead, sometimes I swear
I wish you weren’t real
In my fucking head
Word after word
Everything you’ve said
Lost everything it seemed
My home, my family,
The world was now a new scene
Wandered where I swear I wouldn’t go
But I couldn’t help
Giving up my entire soul
Day after day
Letting the black grow
Everything was lost
My mind, my heart,
Such an expensive cost
Dying is what I wanted
That’s why I kept so fast
Saving, never happened
This here was meant to last

Travel far away
Off to better days
You think you’d have a little more to say
Time moving slow
Eyes begin to close
Hoping you make it to where you want to go
Moving straight up
Getting higher on the road
You’d like to make this place your new home
Running back around
Finally on solid ground
To find yourself lost with no way out
Quick to turn
No way you’ll earn
Anyway off every road you’ve burned
Staring off straight
Different place, same taste
Just remember to not show the hate on your face

Long roads

Almost never end

Which way to go

No one knows

We lost control

Time

Passes by

Alone in this hole

Sitting still

No more digging

I have no will

So far away from home
It feels strange
To not know where to go
Lost my way somehow
Digging this big hole
Now I can’t get out
I was looking for some hope
Then sadly ended up alone
Help me find my way
I need a hand to hold
Pull me out of this grave
I’m dying to be saved
By anyone or anything
I need to find a way
To get back to my mind
Take back all lost time
Trace back my steps
Change what came next
Hold my last breath
Till I find this exit

You’re in my head again today
I don’t know if that’s the right way to say
Cause you’ve actually never left my brain
I miss you so much
More than words can explain
I miss the way you smiled,
How it made all my dark go away
It’s been a while now
Since I’ve even seen your face
I think maybe it’s time
To get out of this place
But I hate the thought of leaving this way
No trace
No goodbye
Just a lot of questions,
I know you’d ask why
So for you, I’m here
For you, I will stay
Waiting and hoping that
You can tell me you’re okay

I saw a walking ghost
That must’ve been what you saw
I wonder if it scared you
That I wasn’t standing as tall
If this is how you felt
I’m sorry I couldn’t help
Putting myself in that place
I realize now,
What you saw I would take
As I’m sitting in this hall
Alone surrounded by empty walls
The one that kept me sane
Is now why I’m killing my brain
So this seems to be the end
Both for you and me
I’m so sorry friend
I pray he’ll let me see you again

So you’re back in this hole
You need a way out
Starting to feel weak
You have a lot of doubt
It’s been a few days
Since you’ve been swirling around
Cause your life is crashing
Taking your whole world down
It’s gonna be okay
That’s what they all say
But it gets less reassuring
Day after day
I feel like I’ve been beat
It’s probably time to quit
I think it’s time to face defeat

These windows keep closing

They’re suffocating me in this room

Slowly but surely

They’ll take my last cold breathe

Shooting it right out of my chest

It’s getting darker

Making life so much harder

It’s gonna be alright though

You’ll feel no more sorrow

Have a little faith,

That you’ll make it to tomorrow