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My head’s hurting

My fuckin’ stomachs turning

I can see okay

But the thoughts in my head

Are saying I should drink ’till I’m dead

I can walk straight

And although you hate this

I feel fuckin’ great

As angry as one can get
I stared at the glass
Oh how upset
Now back to my wrist
Push down a lot harder
Show ’em you want this
The more it touched my skin
The angrier I became
It wasn’t good enough
I wanted bigger cuts
Still, nothing
Only scratches left on me
I’m unsatisfied
So I try another piece
Slower this time
I want to get it right
All my blue turned to red
I want to be done with this
I’m so ready to be dead

You smile in my face
But things aren’t okay
You fuckin hate me right now
You wish I would change
But drugs are my favorite
Alcohol and dope,
All next to coke
I warned you of this
I told you not to come with
But it’s too late now
There’s no escape
You’re stuck here with me
Just like it was fate
For me to ruin you
As I dig my own grave
So to hell I’ll go
But before I do
I want you to know
That you’re also coming too
Trapped in my life,
You don’t get a better option
You’ll now watch me die
And at the end of it all
I’ll be all you have left
No other way to turn
You’ll have to face my death
Cause I warned you
To fucking turn away
But you decided you were gonna stay
So now I’ll just sit here with you
And keep smiling in your face
As I lie, saying things are okay

Let’s take a walk
Think about every talk
Why’d you go and do that
Is it that hard to stop doing bad
You’re a little sad
More disappointed than mad

But I’m trying

Then why the fuck are you still crying
Get this out of your head
You don’t want to be dead

How many times do you go over this in your head
I know you can’t help but wish you were dead
But he’s not gonna fix you remember,
just
like he said.

Self destructing

You’ve lost control again

Destroying mountains

You’ve found no home still

Hurricanes through the valley

You’ve taken several victims

Fires set in the woods

You’ve showed no sympathy

Robbing every city

You’ve given your last call

Taking everything with you

You’ve taken down your last wall

It feels like when you catch your breath
Finally
After running in the cold
The feeling when your lips reach the surface
Sucking
In the air after being under water a second longer than you can stand
When you’re dying of heat and your dry throat
Gulps
Down the coldest of water
When you see the needle at the doctor but the
Sting
Is fast and the prick is painless
The pain in your side and stomach after
Laughing
For ten minutes straight
When you get on a roller coaster and that bit of
Fear
Is in you but suddenly the rides over
When you almost hit another car and your
Heart
Jumps a small beat of relief

It’s time for one more
Another broken heart
You got torn apart
I wander but now alone
Lost again it feels,
Can’t find the way home
Your hand no longer in reach
The thought makes me empty
You’ve taken my mind
It’s now black all the time
Killing my sanity
Making it harder to breathe
I feel it in my bones
When he says he doesn’t want to be alone
But do you see it in my eyes
When I say I want to end my life

Sometimes

Things go bad
No warnings, no signs
Now you’re nothing but sad

Sometimes

Things cross paths
For nothing
Nothing but to crash

Sometimes

Things will never stay
No goodbye
Everything leaves without a trace

Sometimes

Things are just for a moment
You have to let be
Learn and just leave

Sometimes

Things are just to hurt
To fuck you up
Then rub in more dirt

Sometimes

Things are better that way
Giving you no more chances
Showing you life’s no game

I think sorry’s too late to say

You can’t take it back

The damage is done and away

Everything gold is now black

Although images replay

Showing off all your slack

There’s no sense in still feeling this way

Time’s not something you can get back